I woke up thinking about my life events leading up to my birthday/book Soiree. I thought of how I was a doormat for others because I was never cultivated to appreciate myself. Instead, I was taught through experience to look pretty, be quiet and get in and fit in. Unfortunately, getting in and fitting it entailed drug dealers, athletes and older men. But after doing what I learned through others, I hated who I became so much so that I prayed repeatedly that God allowed me to slumber… forever. Lord, forgive me.

Thankfully God stepped in; literally while I was sleeping. In a Holy Instant, the Spirit evoked a response from my soul. What I know for sure, if you’re not moving steadily in the direction of what you say you want, you can be certain that you are sabotaging yourself somewhere. But what I learned while working out my own salvation is that you’re more than enough to work out your own salvation too! If it weren’t true, God wouldn’t have commanded it.

What I know, no one can mold and shape you into who you’re meant to be. However